My recent birthday has really got me thinkin' about stuff...
I'm getting older and things are getting more complicated
good people are harder to find as of late
everyone wants to just have sex
like it's no big deal
I guess it's not
but I truly want something with more substance
not nessisarily a committed relationship
or anything forged or rushed
It would be nice to have someone in my life
that I truly connect with
have fun with
someone that's somewhat mature
and doesn't play silly little games
maybe some passion
crazy passion
sometimes I think that those chances have passed me up
I've had really good people in my life
I always screw it up somehow
by doing something stupid
because of my commitmaphobia
the last one really burnt me
I fell hard
now I think he's a joke
he likes to fuck young pretty drunk girls
everytime I run in to him
I feel disgusting
now I'm jaded and I feel like
even if I met someone great
I don't have anything to give
I'm ranting
he/she is out there
or maybe not
Current Mood:
nostalgicCurrent Music: silence